Breakdown~
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
been thinking lately.. alot alot... why do i always hide my emotions deep inside... it has already been a habit for yrs... den it always comes a time when everything just burst out of nowhere.. then is goes into collecting the emotions again... moving in a cycle.. i really wish to stop tis cycle.. sigh...
really getting so emo lately la... but i dun really let ppl see tat side of me much... but i tink ppl around me shld be able to notice tat i've been damn bloody noisy lately... hm.. ppl who know me would know tat, its my way to divert my frustration... but most ppl just tend to think tat i'm just plain noisy and irritating la..
why i feel so frustrated? i do not even know the answer myself... sigh... just simply put it.. i'm lost... like worse than ever kind of lost... last time i always tink if i haf a partner to listen to me.. i will feel better... but now.. i dun even know wad i wan.. do i nid love? do i nid frenx? argh..
i'm afraid tat i might get into another depression again... my life also been getting more and more dull.. since i dun really hangout much anymore.. prioritising my studies as most impt thing now... only time i'll get to enjoy is when i pon sch wif my frenx.. but since i'm focusing on studies, the chances of me ponning is low.. unlike our absent queen, doris koh! LOL.. i envy her sia, can pon like half the semester and get promoted to next sem surprisingly la.. i mean its like, in a week, u cant possibly see her having full attendance for just even a week! haha.. back to my point... i mean besides ponning, i only hangout wif nich kor nowadays.. but den again, he only goes out like for not more than 6hrs de la.. so its kinda boring.. we go out wif an aim, and go straight home after accomplishing our goal.. all tks to his heavy color light fren la.. always wanna go back early to call his dear dear ~.~
anyway.. really going berserk soon... i nid enlightenment!!! but obviously not from jesus!!! no offence.. =x wad i wan now... is.... i dunno la!!!! aaarrrggggghhhhh~!!!!
nyango, nomeds... maybe one of u can be my saviour... and speaking of the devil... LOL.. he got online just rite after i type his name! omg.. is tis a sign?!!!! i tink i'm just tinking too much.. bye!!!
I went off at
Y6:05 PM
