Endless Tears
Saturday, July 21, 2007
Yesterday, first time i cried from harbour front to sembawang in the train... everyone's looking... even got aunties asking whether i wan tissue or not.. as i walk from the station to my house, i really start losing control of my body... so i let it go and drop right down on the floor and burst out crying... after awhile i went back home.. lock myself in my room.. drinking and crying and smoking.. look so terrible when i look at myself in the mirror..
Lied on my bed staring at the clock... unaware of the tears tat flows, cox i'm really numb.. and its the first time i'm able to stare and see the clock ticks from 11~2am..
Now i'm just totally gone... no strength or motivation to move on... i cant actually tink and feel anymore.. where are you.. when i nid u to hold me .. make me see wads real emotions...
sorry to my fyp team and frenx... i dun haf the driving force to do anything anymore..
I went off at
Y12:51 PM
