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Sunday, September 02, 2007
Hm... i'm really at such a vulnerable state rite now... sometimes.. i realli doubt myself.. why am i born wif so much flaws.. i know we are not born perfect.. but it seems like there will definitely be one thing to a certain person tat they dislike about me..
I know that tis person has done so much for me.. overlooking so many flaws tat he doesnt like abt me.. but still loving me unconditionally.. i'm falling deeper in love wif him each day.. but seems like tat person start to doubt his own love for me... i really dunno wad to do.. i dun wanna make myself sound so pathetic, like seeking pity from others.. so i wun talk much abt how bad a person i am..
Telling me not to fall too deep, learn to protect myself.. i cant help abt thinking tat, he is implying he knows tat he will hurt me one day.. deep inside, he knows it is impossible to last.. but wad i can say is.. i will put in all my feelings if i find tat person is worth my love.. i dun care abt the outcome or wadsoever.. cox i just wanna love tat person as much as i can when i haf the chance.. at least i will not come to regret that i haven done enough.. all i wan is the treasure the moments we share.. even if its just days, hours, mins or even seconds.. at least i'm satisfied tat i once felt his love.. his care..
Even if its going to be the end of it soon.. wads left are still sweet and meaningful memories spent with him.. i realli cant express very well.. but i really appreciate and felt touched by his actions.. it may seem like small simple things.. but bcox they are small simple things, ppl tend to miss them out.. and its all these small simple things tat he've done tat really make me feel loved.. and its like the first time my heart is telling me tat i can really be ready to commit in tis relationship for once... spending a big part of my life with this special someone..
hopes seems to be gone somehow.. and i'm lost on wad to do..
u'll always have a place in my heart.. a big portion...
will i get to call u Baby again? will i get to hear u calling me BaoBei again?
I went off at
Y10:31 PM
