Dilemma?
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
Hmm... recently.. as in REAL RECENTLY.. lol.. today i saw one hot guy.. got off the train at the same station as me.. walk the same path as me.. i was like.. wow.. cox i nv knew that such creatures exists in secluded places like sembawang.. And my kind of hot is... abit hunky... lol.. k la.. my taste abit changed.. lol.. but he is tall!! decent looking and stuff.. most important is, he is tall, either same as my height or even taller.. hais... den ytd also saw another one.. ns man.. woo.. also super fit! like omg lo.. pls let him fuck me.. lol... k.. sound desperate.. and ya.. really didnt know all these creatures until recently.. is it a sign???!!! lol.. and is like.. fucking near my block la.. one at 45x another at 41x.. i stalked them back to their block.. =x but cannot give exact block la.. hahah.. my block is 47x if u all do not know.. haha.. one cross road, one behind my block..
But hais.. also dunno la.. recently like.. identity crisis.. dilemma.. its like.. i've been thinking.. things like.. "let fate control me or create my own destiny?" sounds lame, but its like.. i've realised that.. i used to say, turning back straight is like chicken feet.. but now its like... there is no turning back.. like singapore is so small.. all the gays practically know each other.. and if u claim u are straight, u have like 10,000 ppl out there saying u're not.. not tat it matters.. but i mean.. tink about it la.. wad if.. ur boss in the future is ur ex's bf.. den is like.. hais.. u may say wad are the odds rite? but.. really.. i mean if u really go look around.. singapore is actually a place in the planet that has the highest probability of someone related to u in one way or another.. so is like.. words of advise, "think, think hard, think harder before choosing the path of a homosexual" lol.. so the ME now is.. abit in crisis ba.. part of me telling myself to take the NS period as a chance to change and be a REAL MAN.. another part of me just wanna let fate control wads next for me.. i mean.. aiya.. its not something u can really change in ur own hand ba.. wad if... all your gays "sisters" are in the same camp as u? i mean we are all bitches la.. so identity sure exposed de.. plus, when sisters are talking, it comes so naturally for us to picha lobang.. ~.~ anyway.. while wondering about all tis in the train today, when i got off, i saw "him" aboarding the train.. hais.. is it another sign? wad does my heart tell me now? i always follow wad my heart wants.. wad my heart feel most comfortable to.. but now it stopped responding..
I went off at
Y8:26 PM
