Hibernation?
Sunday, October 21, 2007
i really need to know why i can spend my whole weekend just on slpin.. =.= pissed off sia.. ok. from friday woke up in the morning to go sch, but eva and kailing end up saying not going, so i also didnt go. since friday doris also no class.. sianx.. so i went back to slp lo.. den hor, when i woke up, guess wad, its 10 mins b4 its sunday.. =.= meaning 11.50pm on saturday night.. zzz i slept for like.. hmm from 11pm of thursday to 11.50pm on saturday.. tat's ... OMFG! 48hrs and 50mins?! wads wrong wif me man.. i mean since the start of this sem hor, my weekends are like at least 18 hrs a day la.. hais.. i heard they say its some sort of symptom of some disorder.. but aiya.. no time to check it up since i've been slp...
anyway today is a special day to me.. but i write also not everyone will know la.. but its a memorable day for me.. First time tio perf cfm for 185bpm!!! anyway its audi stuff la.. all the slowpokes and retards will nv understand and appreciate tis game.. =p
spent my whole day today, mopping, cleaning, washing, ironing.. wad else? oh ya.. cooking.. my lontong, how u spell tat?! nvm... wasnt as nice la.. but edible.. while ironing clothes.. my mind been thinking.. actually all the while la.. abt sexual orientation.. dunno why but i start doubting.. why now? hais.. actually i'm onli an aj bcox of my fascination for cute looks on male species.. and the hope i'm holding onto.. i've always blive tat, there is tis someone, searching for me while i'm searching for him.. its a feeling, and its so real tat i choose to blive it and hold onto it for 12 yrs.. to be exact, 10 yrs.. since the 2 yrs is for realisation of my orientation.. i tink i talk abt this guy in a old entry so yup.. not gonna talk abt it..
But.. alot of things.. factors in life.. changing my order of life.. all the while, i've homophobia, but i kip lying to myself tat i can acpt as long as i'm fren wif them.. but seems like, the more i get close to them, the more i hate them.. the more clearer the reasons are for me to hate them... its hard to turn back.. really.. hahaha.. but i haf my princess in mind... hope she can acpt me for all tis shitty past i have.. i go for gurls smarter than me, and so u know, gurls who doesnt even haf a diploma do not apply.. =)
I went off at
Y7:00 PM
