things i regret in life
Monday, April 14, 2008
The other time, when Ying ask me what supernatural power do i wish to have.. And i answered, the power to manipulate time.. Den she responded and say "u sure have lots of regrets in life"
I can't deny that... I've been living
20 years worth of regrets...
Let's go by chronological order...
When i'm just started learning to walk-I regretted:
- Climbing up that scallop shell seat in a shopping mall at water loo street *ended up falling and having a bun on my head*
- Eating ants at my aunt's house corridor
When i'm in kindergarden-I regretted:
- Throwing those toys at the girl just because she refused to share her toy
- Stealing a cool keychain from a classmate and never got to chance to confess
- Not keeping in contact with one classmate cause her mother has a mixed veg rice stall in the wet market at amk and its cheap!
When i'm in primary school-I regretted:
- Poking Maria (a jap classmate) with a mechanical pencil and make her cry
- Slapping Wee Fong (my girlfriend) in class and embarrassed her
- Shitted on my pants and keep insisting it wasn't me
- Acted as a fairy in my school skit, and ppl recognize me as that and till now it is still haunting me
- Knowing Soh Kok Teng, Soh Chun Zheng, Junior Yeo, Minghui, Chen WeiLin, bcox they ended up just making use of me just for my money.
- Not being able to get any real friends in primary school
- Having hanky panky with my mom side cousin (a guy younger than me by a yr)
- Giving my first powerranger megazord to my neighbours, Issac and Ivan
- Bringing my most loved red ranger zord to the beach and got it rusted, it can no longer transform from a dragon to a human like form anymore =(
- Bought a useless light sensitive action figure that i did not play after 2 days *cost around 30 over dollars*
- Wasting over 30 dollars just to get a mew inside my pokemon red version *utterly stupid*
When i'm in Secondary school-I regretted:
- Confessing to so many guys in my school *make me look like a fool*
- Being friends with Geow Kane Nathaniel *sigh*
- Being an open gay in my school, ending up giving lots of problem for me
- Attempting the foolish suicidal act that brought trouble for everyone
- Forcefully pushed ying against the table over a trivial matter
- Breaking a promise that ying asked me to keep a secret.
- Having that childish insults posted in my blog against bei over some stupid matter that i don't even remember now
- Self mutilation that resulted in permanent scars
- Suffered through depression after confessing to hocksheng *not really a bad thing since i slim down alot due to that*
- Having a more serious hanky panky with my dad side cousin (a guy older by 1 yr)
- Not being able to treasure my friends well i guess
- Following Ying's trend to buy colored contacts that i wore twice nia! for 50 bucks!
- and last but not least, EVER falling for QUINCY TAN ENG HWEE *its a fucking big mistake in my life* i wish i nv even know him ==
When i'm in Polytechnic-I regretted:
- Being too deeply in love with Sean Cai XinYuan *resulted in mistrust*
- Taking up smoking
- Mixing too much with the AJ circle
seems like in poly, i didnt regret much since nothing much happen anyway.
Currently-I regretted:
- Ever posting this entry to let people know some of my dark secrets
- That i'm still gay
- That i'm still not working
- Not being able to complete my driving license
- Not learning to swim
- And lots lots more... *all flooding my mind right now*
I need to sleep!!!! couldn't sleep last night cause of thinking how to post this up... Now i should be able to sleep in peace.. =)
Den again actually i think there's more that i can't recall at the moment... so wadever la...
I went off at
Y1:20 AM
